For the last week or ten days, I've been having the most vivid, violent, dreams, so surreal that it's hard to even put them down on electrons. The common theme has been my being drawn into a mortal struggle in weird, somewhat futuristic, bleak, societies, (think music by NIN, scenery by Blake and Bosch) sometimes in some sort of game, fighting against some Big Brotherish types, in others, in sort of a Dante's Inferno styled journey, and in others just trying to survive the random affects of Chaos. That last sentence is imposing waaaay more coherence than the dreams deserve, I think.

One of the most bizarre and chilling sequences involved me having to follow a crowd of doomed people in to these horrible Holocaust machines that crushed and incinerated them. In each case I was ordered/escorted/forced into them by these burly/goonish faceless armored guards, that would put me in line with the weeping, hopeless victims, and make me witness the effects of the machines, all the while reassuring me that I would not be hurt. Then, I would be put in the chamber to be maimed/burned/pulverized, only to have them "save" me at the last instant, when a secret door would open and whisk me away just as the machine began to operate.

In the final instance, the machine involved worked by shoving the prone victim down this ramp through a square steel opening that was much too small for any adult human. The hydraulic ram forced them through anyway, with pieces of their bodies shearing of the sides of the aperture in a spray of blood. After seeing a half a dozen or so people "processed" was the word the guards used, in this way, they ordered me to the head of the line and told me to lay down the little luge-type sled that the ram shoved down the ramp to the opening.

I did, resigned to my fate. The ram began to accelerate down the ramp.

At the very last instant, a large door popped open just above the square opening, a small ramp popped up, and the luge flew up over the too-small opening and into the blackness of the larger door above it.

I landed in a sort of a pit/cauldron/mixer where I was tossed around in a mucky swampy-thick soup composed of decomposing bones, body parts, and a gray ashy mud formed with the waste of the incinerators. I could recognize the features of some of the folks I had witnessed go before me.

After a time, the mixer tossed me out and down a long winding sluice, where I rode in the current of muck, and finally into a pool where the guards fished me out and dragged me into a room where I was cleansed with high pressure water jets, and then hurried along, naked and wet to meet this entity that I can only describe as the GamesMaster.

I asked one of the guards ( I had now come to think of them more as for my protection than anything else, think Vergil in Dante) why this had been done to me, and he replied that it was important for the Bad Guys (not his word, but the label I've put on the Evil Force, Chaos, whatever) to think I was dead, that I had been "processed" and all of the preceeding had been a charade to decieve them.

Then a bunch of other stuff happens - even less coherent than the above.

It's been Purty Weird.

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Well, maybe it is. I've found that though I love having written, I hate the actual physical process of writing. I keep wanting to add and change stuff, tweak and tweak and tweak ad infinitum, ad nauseam. Carpal and cruddy typing skills don't help.

I was watching Charlie Rose the other night. He was interviewing a writer, I forget who, it's not important.

Rose asked the guy, a reporter that had to write a regular column, how he managed to be so prolific. The guy said that he just had a goal of a thousand words, four miserable pages, every day, no matter what.

Discipline yourself to do that, he said, and in three short months, you have a book.

I was astounded to think of it that way. Are modern novels truly that short? Just 80-100k words? Hello? Anybody?

I can do a thousand a day, I think. That's gonna be my goal from now on. 1,000 a day. Even if it's crapola, 1,000 a day. You Have Been Warned.

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